Mind, Devil, or Both

Is it my mind or the devil?


I could leave that question all to itself and it could be answered a million ways.  I am in love with the man of my dreams and have everything I ever prayed for but sometimes my mind cast doubts.  No physical evidence that I am doubtful of.. just a bunch of “what ifs.”  That is not fair to myself or to my love, however he is so understanding and just tells me this is all normal.  I think I can say that finally having what I have always wanted in life scares me to lose it.  I have found the man that I can see myself with for the rest of my life and I find myself wanting to be better at things in life for the future of us.  So why in the world does my mind do this to me?  This is the question that brings the devil question into play, because to me I can only imagine one person who would want to take away my happiness that they would put harmful thoughts in my heart and mind as if it was a movie that only I could see.  Who let me tell you who.. the devil.  One thought goes into my mind and then it causes depression, anxiety, and doubt for hours upon hours.  So far the only thing that helps is to pray and read the bible.


Could this be the whole sensitivity problem or my huge emotional issues mixed with my anxieties taking over?  And if all of this is normal to most why does it feel like doom doom doom to me?


Now I need to figure out how to help solve this dilemma in my mind!  So I take to Pinterest as I do with all important questions I have… I typed in the search bar “relationship anxieties,”  and a bunch of things come up.  After reading and searching for a sign, an article, or a quote of hope I came across the following:

  1. 7 Questions To Ask Yourself The Next Time You Feel Intense Anxiety: Which is basically what it says and it goes through a couple of self inflicted reasons you could be having anxiety.  To name a couple caffine and or low blood sugar.  Click the title to take a read.
  2. 10 Ways to Show Love to Someone With Depression: Again is exactly what it says it is, and it goes through a couple of things that could help your battle with your lovers depression and to be honest this is all things that I do already to help with my depression and my lovers.  Things like going outside, a hug, or even laughing!  Click the title and take a read.
  3. The next was a photo of a quote that gave me a pick me up and when you follow the link there are a bunch of the quotes to help cope with anxiety you can look at them here: (website)! The one I like is here:d8043093fb52a95309df49e696ec2036
  4. And finally the one that sent this truthful understanding calm over my body is a picture of a quote by Monica Drake. It’s not like I was never nervous during our first dates or had butterflies when we first started dating of course but that came to an end real soon this is something I have been battling with and that is what was causing some of my doubts.  Until this quote found me and it made me feel like I knew the emotions of my heart were true, I feel he is my soul mate and I feel so comfortable around him as if we have been married for years and we are this unit in the world that knows the ins and outs of each other.  Here it is, I need to get this print and put it in our house:


I just have nothing else to say that quote is the best way to end this anxiety filled post, on a peaceful note that makes me feel so much better!  I love you guys so much and thanks for reading come say hi here or at:

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