Goodbye 2017

Hi Guys,

Happy New Years Eve!

2017 really took me for a ride that I was not ready for and I am still dealing with!  

First off my SO and I worked for the same company going into 2017 and we went into 2017 knowing that the company was being acquired. No matter if we stayed with the acquiring company or went with a different company we knew we had to move out of state. Not just for the type of work we do but also the Bay Area is just to expensive to live a comfortable life! (I do pray one day we will be back!)

In January of 2017 I received a phone call from my sister that my father was really ill. I don’t think I can explain in words the amount of emotions that came about when I received this call. Emotions mainly of anger towards myself because I had 33 years to get close to my dad and I chose to be angry because I felt he never wanted anything to do with me.  My SO and I left that weekend and drove 10 hours (because of the weather) each way to see him.  When we got to my dad he was waiting for us! We spent that weekend with him and it was the last time I saw my dad.

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In April my SO decided to take a job in Illinois, in the beginning of May he moved to IL and we decided I would finish out June here in Cali and make move with him.

On May 23, 2017 my dad passed away just 7 days before his 60th birthday. Again I was mad (TBH still mad at myself) I didn’t make time to go down to visit him just one more time before he passed. We actually buried him on his 60th birthday! Maybe one day I will go into my emotions with more detail but I still haven’t come to terms with it.

On June 30th, I left this company I thought would be around for a very long time.. and I truly enjoyed working at. I met so many great friends and learned many skills. I was heart broken to make this decision but since the new company wasn’t going to extend my position I knew it was better to let go of this chapter in my life.

In July we packed up our apartment and sent most of our belongings to IL. August was bittersweet.. cousin was married and had a beautiful wedding.. I planned a birthday party for August birthdays like my mom and goddaughter since I was going to miss them first time ever.. but my family surprised me with a going away party.

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Shortly after I made the move to IL. Leaving behind everyone and everything I have ever known.. easy to say my anxiety and depression have been at an all time high since (again I will save this for another post).

From August till now I have been trying to get used to life in a new place without the convenience of having my family and friends physically with me.  I have slowly been finding my confidence in learning the way to Target or Walmart or the grocery store.

Fortunately I have been able to make some visits home and spend time with my family. Also I am very lucky to have had visitors here. The one thing I wish is that I knew of more things to show my guests.. because I am seeing this beautiful place for the first time myself.

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My cousins came in October!

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Our beautiful goddaughter came for Thanksgiving!

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And my cousin came out for a weekend to drop my mom off for the month of December and the rest of the holidays!

And now here we are December 31st and it has been one eventful year! A year of events that I don’t think I could have planned for!

I hope tonight is amazing for you all and please don’t drink and drive or let anyone you know drink or drive! Also count your blessings life can change in an instant..

Tomorrow lets welcome 2018 with open arms.. I will post my hopes!

Again Happy New Year Eve.. May all your dreams come true in 2018!

Love,

Toria V.

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MY XMAS WISH LIST 2017

Hi Guys,

Merry Christmas! Can you believe it’s here already?

This year has been super crazy.. Lots of changes in my life! Two main ones.. I lost my dad and no I still haven’t dealt with my feelings! Then right after my SO and I took a leap and moved away from everything and everyone I have ever known including my beautiful goddaughter who is like my child and my amazing mom! Again I am dealing with both these feelings on a daily basis so as you can imagine my life is full of anxiety!

I always put out a “wish” list not for anyone to buy me things but just because it is a fun list that I often write out a bunch of times throughout the season. If you don’t like the whole “what I want” or “what I got” type articles and videos…Sorry not sorry but these are some of my favorite things that I truly enjoy!

***Of course thanks to the World Wide Web for the pics and links!***

The first thing on my list is probably the most expensive item (they will descend in price) on here but it is definitely needed. I need a new laptop not only to continue my blog writing or YouTube creating but I will be a freshman in college come JAN2018 and of course I need the laptop to study and work. Yes I have one but it took a dive into the world of unusable metal! Ideally I would want one that had a good amount of storage and an Intel Core processor of at least i5.

$800 at Best Buy

The next item on my list is something I have wanted for a little while but never really had a good enough reason to buy one.. well unless wanting to pretend to be a Power Ranger was a good enough reason. If you didn’t guess it.. I want a smart watch! Having to be in class soon and not being able to pull out my phone for everything is my reason. I depend on my phone to stay in constant contact with my mom, my family, and my moms health!

$360 Target

The third item on my list is something I have been interested in but have not purchased since I am not completely the label junkie and just use things that look good and make me feel great. But I do love my handbags and I have always been a fan of Rebecca Minkoff.. I do have one of the Mini MAC bags. But I have always looked at her more structured bags like the MAB or even the Regan satchel.. So yes I would love to add a structured black bag to my collection.

Rebecca Minkoff Large Regan Satchel $350

And why not add in a Rebecca Minkoff wallet to go with!

$85

No list of mine would be complete without clothing, shoes, and beauty items.. soooo…

My clothing item is just a sweatsuit matching pieces from Rainbow Shops

Hoodie $11

Pants $11

My shoes two pairs:

1-Checkerboard Vans

Nordstrom $50

2-Fenty Faux Fur Slides

Ruvilla $90

And for beauty I have three things with my eyes on them:

1-Watermelon Sleeping Mask

Sephora $45

2-Fenty Trophy Wife

Sephora $34

3-Tommy Girl Perfume

Macy’s $57

Finally my emotional wants for this coming year are four simple things. Firstly I want to strengthen my relationship with the Lord (always a work in progress) second I want to see my loved ones as much as possible throughout the year (especially my mom, goddaughter, and dogs) third is a natural for me.. I want to see somewhere new or maybe two places and eat good food (if this happens I will try to blog) and fourth aka last but not least I want to be successful with school, with my blog, and YouTube channel!

That is all I have this year… I hope you guys have a blessed Christmas and that the new year is full of happiness and great health for us all. May all your dreams come true in 2018!

For those who do not celebrate Christmas.. Happy Holidays!

Love Toria

I Lied To You

Hi Guys!

I have come today to be honest with you all. I have been lying to you for all these years! I’m sorry!

Yes I have depression.. anxiety.. diabetes.. fibromyalgia.. and making list after list does in fact keep me calm!

But besides this I have not been myself on here or on YouTube! I have been trying my hardest to portray the characteristics of the popular girls. Why because I wanted to be liked by the world and be successful at this life.

I can’t hold up to this facade anymore it is so tiring. I need to be myself! TBH it is not working either so what do I have to lose!?

I am Victoria and I am a city girl who is country at heart. I don’t think I will ever have a modern home.. I want a country farmhouse home but currently just have a normal home that is not decorated to the nines.

I am quirky and nerdy and dress kind of weird.. I don’t mind being in what some don’t considered trendy clothing as long as I am dressed cute and comfy to me!

I live for food, fashion(my style), and beauty! I try my best to incorporate food into my fashion and beauty 95% of the time! I am the biggest animal lover (also incorporated into my fashion) and cry almost everyday because of animal videos or looking at adoption websites!

I am overly sensitive like more sensitive than most young children.. if there is a story on about Christmas or love or a talent show on tv I will cry! Not just cry but ball my eyes out!

If I could have Christmas decor up 24/7 365 days a year.. I WOULD!! I am going to try doing Christmas at Halloween time this year coming! I want to be Mrs. Claus and decorating my home as the North Pole! I have believed in Santa for 34 years and will never not!

I am an organized dreamer.. I dream of one day marrying my best friend but have accepted that that may not happen and as long as I am with him and we are happy in life I will be wonderful. Just like I dream of being a mom via adoption because I don’t want to be pregnant.. but also accept that I may just be a fur mom and the cool aunt to my nieces and nephews! I dream of homes.. food.. travel.. even my wardrobe picks for seasons to come even if I will never have these things. But the reason I say organized is because it starts as a list and ends in a slideshow show presentation sometimes with a buying plan. I can show you my organization on another blog. However I think I dream so much because of things that I have been through and it helps me hide in oblivion behind sparkles and sequins!

Things that have happened to me were the reason I acted out and made poor choices at times in life or wanted to be someone else.. but I have prayed continually to God for forgiveness and guidance for myself and the ones who victimized me! I have been forgiven by God and know that everyone makes mistakes.. my mistakes have everything to do with who I am!

My family especially my SO.. my mom.. and my goddaughter.. and all of my family also have helped me to be a better me and truly mean everything to me and if I could do little things or big things to make them happy.. that is my goal in life! It’s makes me happy to see the ones I love happy!

I HOPE YALL CAN ACCEPT ME FOR ME!

I want to revamp my blog theme and my YouTube site.. I need to be myself. I love being funny while talking about the things I love. It doesn’t matter if I am successful at these things as much as I would like to be.. I can no longer do this to try and be a popular one.. I just need to be me.. and if the world likes me then it’s a blessing but if they don’t then that’s okay because I love me and that is a bigger blessing!

Until next time my pretties!!

Love Toria Louise

5 Items: Burlington Coat Factory

Hi Guys,
This is the beginning of greatness!! I would like to start a new series all about bargain shopping! I am a bargain shopper by blood from my mama… and I can clearance hunt with the best of them aka my mom and aunts!

My family loves to shop… we used to and if we can.. we will still eat our meals on turkey-day all while planning our plan of attack on the sales that are about to unleash! Maybe the love of shopping for most of us is why I truly believe in retail therapy! LOL!

This series will be called 5 items and it is really just 5 bargain items from different stores… sometimes I will give myself a challenge when buying these items or like today just great items I found at a really good price!

Today’s 5 items are from one of my favorite stores and that is Burlington Coat Factory (BFC), this store is a great place to buy clothing, fashion accessories, shoes, beauty, home goods and so much more. I almost found a bit of it all… lol!!

The first item I found was a men’s denim button up that I thought would be cute as a light throw for those days where the sun is out like summer but there is also that lovely fall breeze! This is a Guess shirt that originally retailed for 89 bucks but I was able to purchase it on clearance for just $17!


The second item I found also is an item made by Guess… but these are slides and unless you live under a rock then you know slides took over this year like never before! I was looking at the Guess slides online and when I saw them in BFC I jumped on them! They retail for 25 bucks and I bought them for $15… not as big as a deal as the first item but saving is saving!


The third item of course is a notebook because stationary, books, and journals is always a stop at every store… this notebook is cute, pink, and motivational! The notebook retails for 14 bucks and I bought it for $4!


The fourth item I found was not something I needed but something I wanted for the new place. I saw this and thought this would be so cute in my dining area with the rest of my farmhousey items! The canister retails for 10 bucks and I bought it for $5!


The last item was not actually an item for me but a gift for Lani… she turned 13 recently… becoming a teenage girl, getting into makeup, becoming a young woman and I knew she would need to find her scent! So I picked up a 1D perfume that smells divine and the bottle is so precious! If I can find another I will add one to my collection. This perfume retails for 16 bucks and I bought it for $7.


And there you have it the 5 items from BFC.. what do you think? Let’s run some numbers:

Retail Value: $145 – Purchased Value:$48 – Value Saved:$97

I will take that 97 bucks any day… this is why I love the being a Deal Hunter! I hope you enjoyed this new series.. I look forward to the future of this series of course… it’s all about shopping!! I am excited to go for other stores and challenges. The challenges can be a budget or a look alike outfit from a magazine.. I am going to try and be creative with the challenges! If you have any challenge ideas or stores you want to see me try.. Just let me know!

Love Toria

I AM THANKFUL FOR

It’s Thanksgiving..

What are you thankful for?

I am thankful for:

  1. God- Just to wake up and live life.
  2. Mom- She loves me unconditionally and I her.
  3. Friend and Family- No explanation needed if your have this you are a rich person.
  4. Work- In this economy its needed and to find work you enjoy is a blessing.
  5. Food- Always be thankful for food and beverage there are lots of people with out it.
  6. Opportunity- Every opportunity is chance to GROW whether you except it or not.
  7. Health- I was really sick and so just to wake up every day is a blessing even if I am not 100% healthy.
  8. YouTube and Blog- Readers, watchers, likers, subscribers.. and these two have given me such a confidence boost and quest in life again.
  9. Fashion and Beauty- Makeup is a passion of mine and the fashion aspect just follows so close to my heart.
  10. My SO- When you find someone that you love and they love you, makes you feel every emotion and makes every good one bestest and every bad one go away.. Also if you have someone that guides you and supports you on your quest for greatness in life.. YOU NEED TO BE MORE THANKFUL!!

So those were my top 10 things I most thankful for!  Now let me know a couple of yours!!

Now I have a video for you:

This is my VAMPY THANKSGIVING LOOK- come watch and see how I do my makeup!!

I love and appreciate you guys.  Please don’t forget to make life AMAZING and STOP AND SMELL THE FLOWERS!

 

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Dear Santa

This year we are moving and I get to take our very small walk-in closet and when I say small I mean teeny tiny compared to one that I seen in my aunt’s new house.. anyways one day when we take the plunge and move away from convenience and into quality maybe I will have a bigger closet.  Okay so that just went completely off topic lol..  Please don’t take this as complaining I am overjoyed for the life that I have and also I am overjoyed to even have a closet to put stuff in.. it’s just that this makes me want to work towards my dreams and the dream home I know I will one day have.. 

My wonderful SO has so graciously given me the whole walk-in closet to myself.. yes not just not half the whole amazing thing!!  I know for any fashion obsessor and makeup connoisseur this is a dream come true.. the agreement terms is that he fits all of his clothing into the dresser and the coat closet and I must fit everything my makeup clothing shoes purses all into this closet.  This is why I say it is teeny tiny because I have way more things than I need but I love everything I have.  So what this means is that I need to really make great space of the space I have and really get rid of things that I have not worn in 6 months.  Time to pull up that old blog about cleaning out my closet and put it to use again for the millionth time this month!  (If you want me to post it again let me know..)  I am SPOILED I know!!

Now that we are back on topic of my XMAS LIST and not just my ramble, here are a few things I am going to be getting myself..

  • Suavecita Lipsticks
  • Urban Decay Naked 3 Palette
  • Lipstick Spinning Tower
  • HM Copper Glass Box
  • Make Up For Ever Volume 1 Palette
  • Make Up For Ever HD Foundation

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Here is my Santa Letter:

Dear Santa-

I miss you I have thought about you since July well who am I to lie.. I have thought about all year as I do every year.  I can’t help but wish I could visit you at your home and pet Rudolph.  (Hey.. WAIT.. does this sound like a naughty love letter to anyone else besides me!)  I really do think about Christmas all year round as you Santa and this holiday is my favorite thing to look forward too all year..  For Christmas this year I would really like for you to bring me any of the following:

  • Any Matte Lipstick
  • Makeup Storage
  • Anything for my Beachy Farmhouse theme in our new house.
  • Specifically Treat Beauty Marshmallow Treatment
  • Bath & Body Works Marshmallow Fireside
  • Kitchen Aid Mixer Cornflower
  • Sony A5000 Mirror-less Camera
  • Colour Pop Creme Gel Liner Pencils

I am happy with anything really I have faith that you know what I want and need and hope I have been on the nice list long enough.. Here are a few pictures to help you my list.. also if you want to give me world peace and the means to make my dreams come true I will forever pray for that..

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Santa I really do love you and can’t wait till you get out to give gifts for our Lord Jesus’ Birthday… I will leave you some cookies and milk of course.. we might still be up so maybe we can cheers.. haha!!  

Love

Toria

Okay so now that is done time to go to Macy’s so I can send in my letter.. I would love to hear what you are asking Santa for.. and also if you want know some of the good gift finds that I found let me know it can be in blog or vlog formation..

I love and appreciate you guys for even looking this way.. Please do not forget to STOP AND SMELL THE FLOWERS.. MAKE LIFE AMAZING FOR YOU AND EVERYONE BUT START WITH YOU!

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Back-2-School Shopping

Come see what it is that I got Lani for back to school.. I love spoiling her.. she is an amazing young lady!!

I love and appreciate you guys.  Please don’t forget to make life AMAZING and STOP AND SMELL THE FLOWERS!

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