I Lied To You

Hi Guys!

I have come today to be honest with you all. I have been lying to you for all these years! I’m sorry!

Yes I have depression.. anxiety.. diabetes.. fibromyalgia.. and making list after list does in fact keep me calm!

But besides this I have not been myself on here or on YouTube! I have been trying my hardest to portray the characteristics of the popular girls. Why because I wanted to be liked by the world and be successful at this life.

I can’t hold up to this facade anymore it is so tiring. I need to be myself! TBH it is not working either so what do I have to lose!?

I am Victoria and I am a city girl who is country at heart. I don’t think I will ever have a modern home.. I want a country farmhouse home but currently just have a normal home that is not decorated to the nines.

I am quirky and nerdy and dress kind of weird.. I don’t mind being in what some don’t considered trendy clothing as long as I am dressed cute and comfy to me!

I live for food, fashion(my style), and beauty! I try my best to incorporate food into my fashion and beauty 95% of the time! I am the biggest animal lover (also incorporated into my fashion) and cry almost everyday because of animal videos or looking at adoption websites!

I am overly sensitive like more sensitive than most young children.. if there is a story on about Christmas or love or a talent show on tv I will cry! Not just cry but ball my eyes out!

If I could have Christmas decor up 24/7 365 days a year.. I WOULD!! I am going to try doing Christmas at Halloween time this year coming! I want to be Mrs. Claus and decorating my home as the North Pole! I have believed in Santa for 34 years and will never not!

I am an organized dreamer.. I dream of one day marrying my best friend but have accepted that that may not happen and as long as I am with him and we are happy in life I will be wonderful. Just like I dream of being a mom via adoption because I don’t want to be pregnant.. but also accept that I may just be a fur mom and the cool aunt to my nieces and nephews! I dream of homes.. food.. travel.. even my wardrobe picks for seasons to come even if I will never have these things. But the reason I say organized is because it starts as a list and ends in a slideshow show presentation sometimes with a buying plan. I can show you my organization on another blog. However I think I dream so much because of things that I have been through and it helps me hide in oblivion behind sparkles and sequins!

Things that have happened to me were the reason I acted out and made poor choices at times in life or wanted to be someone else.. but I have prayed continually to God for forgiveness and guidance for myself and the ones who victimized me! I have been forgiven by God and know that everyone makes mistakes.. my mistakes have everything to do with who I am!

My family especially my SO.. my mom.. and my goddaughter.. and all of my family also have helped me to be a better me and truly mean everything to me and if I could do little things or big things to make them happy.. that is my goal in life! It’s makes me happy to see the ones I love happy!

I HOPE YALL CAN ACCEPT ME FOR ME!

I want to revamp my blog theme and my YouTube site.. I need to be myself. I love being funny while talking about the things I love. It doesn’t matter if I am successful at these things as much as I would like to be.. I can no longer do this to try and be a popular one.. I just need to be me.. and if the world likes me then it’s a blessing but if they don’t then that’s okay because I love me and that is a bigger blessing!

Until next time my pretties!!

Love Toria Louise

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Christmas Gift Shopping

Heelllooo World,
I absolutely love Christmas, it has been my favorite holiday since I was tiny. In fact in 34 years of my life I have never not believed in Santa.  Some of you might say I am crazy if I believe in a man in his red suit who has flying reindeer and delivers presents to all of the children of the world. That’s okay for you to believe or not believe you are entitled to your own opinion. As am I!


But let go of the object… the man called Santa and listen to the feelings. The feelings of wanting to give, wanting to make someone happy, that warmth that hits even the coldest people, the feel of magic in the air that comes with the nostalgics of Christmas. Also if you are like me and a faithful Christian than we celebrate the birthday of Jesus. Jesus is the reason for the season!


Normally I spend a few months collecting items that I think will make my loved ones the happiest on Christmas Day.. Whether it be of sincere or comic value!  This year this is not the case… Not only have I been consumed with my move and getting adapted to this state we now call home… but let’s keep it real.. I am not working and do not have that kind of money as I am a stay at home cat mom.


So I thought why not do something that I have always wanted to do.. A yearly themed gift.. And for the kids who have no use for a gift like this something different. No what should I do?  I know for those I am sending a Christmas card to I want to send an ornament to mark the change in our lives. BTW This is not the ornament! 


For the gifts.. I am thinking the theme should be “Mugs & Socks”.. I think this would be the perfect gift of coziness and warmth. Like I am giving my loved ones a hug from afar! Now we know I am not going to DIY socks because I am not that crafty lol! But should I DIY the mugs with a few Pinterest styles? 


I would love to hear your thoughts about doing Christmas presents like this… I am definitely going to try it and if it works out this way I think I might do themed birthday gifts for 2018.
Until next time my pretties,

Toria

Birthday Wish List 2017

Hi Guys,

It’s that time of the year again…. MY BIRTHDAY!!!!

That means… this is my annual Birthday Wish List! Unfortunately in this day an age disclaimers are needed to hopefully avoid one of the internet trolls lol..

*DISCLAIMER* Do not read much into my list that I post it is basically my if I could have anything what would that look like. I am not one who makes a list and gets everything on it or even anything on it as gifts. I normally buy myself things on my wish list that I really want! I do not expect gifts from anyone just love and cake haha.. Also I want to know what items would be on your wish list?? 

All I really want for my bday is.. God’s blessings, good vibes, great food, and a functioning world that allows me to grow old with my loved ones!! 

Let’s get this started.. 

Fashion: I love clothing, shoes, and all things fashion. (I dream of giant two level walk in closet) I shop year round and would consider myself somewhat of a pro at shopping. I do not worry about what everyone else wears or thinks is in trend.. I simply just buy what I like and what makes me feel great!

Adidas EQT Support ADV in Lavender Monochrome $110 I have wanted these for a little while now and just think they are the most adorable sneakers ever.. I know pastel colors are technically spring colors but I love wearing what others think are “seasonal” colors all year round! 

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(women’s size 10)

Vans Mono Canvas Old Skool in Skyway (light blue) $55 I have always wanted a pair of these but never wanted to buy the basic colors and now these have arrived in my sight.

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(women’s size 10.5)

Rue 21 Plus Camo 3pc Sweatsuit $57 (for all three)- yes I know these may be lounge wear or look like PJ’s but they look amazing!

Hoodie $19

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(women’s 2X)

Cardigan Duster $19

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(women’s 3X)

Leggings $19

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(women’s 2X)

Fila Trayton Hoodie $68– I have these Fila Grant Hill’s that I wanted when I was in 8th grade and I bought them not long ago but now all I need is a hoodie to wear them with. The thing I love about this one is the brown with the other colors because I can pair with brown leggings!

 

 (men’s 2X or 3X- I love my hoodies huge and comfy like a blanket)

Velour Tracksuit $35 I know everyone had the Juicy Couture velour track suits a billion years ago now but I never had one! I think these are so cute and being cute and exercisy is amazing.. basically 60% of my wardrobe is cute as a button and athletic! 


(women’s 2X)


Tech- I feel I am always in a constant need to upgrade my tech game in order to better my blogging and YouTube work (especially if I want to make it a full time career)!

Smart Watch- I am listing 3 different ones only because there are different brands and styles out here. I want a watch that will track my steps, calendar reminders, allows me to text, and can answer/make phone calls. Not to mention I always wanted to be a Power Ranger!

Fossil Gen 3 Smartwatch $275 I love the two tone of the rose gold and navy.. it just looks classic! 


(Q VENTURE ROSE TWO TONE)

Michael Kors Bradshaw $350 I think this is the boujee one of the bunch… the most expensive for sure! But it looks like a regular watch face so kind of a disguise however it’s a touchscreen and it’s eggplant colored metal! 


(Plum color)

Apple Watch Series 1 $269 This is the most common smart watch you see on everyone’s wrist. It’s like the PSL of smart watches.. I am okay with being basic and having an Apple Watch as long as it looks semi girly like this one lol!


(38mm rose gold with pink sand sports band) 

Laptop- I need a common but specific laptop.. I found this one.. I could go for the Intel Core i7 with more memory and bigger hard drive but this is the basics of what I need to better edit my videos!

HP – 15.6″ Touch-Screen Laptop – Intel Core i5 – 8GB Memory – 1TB Hard Drive – HP finish in jet black $529 


(Click here for this one)  

Film Editing Software- VideoStudio Ultimate X10 for Windows $100 I could use a different one as long as it’s compatible with the laptop above.

 

Beauty- who would I be if I didn’t include beauty on a wish list.. I love reviewing beauty products.. So I kept it easy and picked my 4 top items from my Sephora “LOVES” list. And a KC product! 

Glow Recipe Watermelon Glow Sleeping Mask $45 Doesn’t this just sound amazing and looks divine! I want watermelon all over my face!

 

Moschino Pink Fresh Couture Perfume 1.0 oz $45 I have wanted the original windex perfume for the bottle but knew I wouldn’t like the notes.. but they released this one and it’s the bottle with my scents and color!!! 


 

Farsali Unicorn Essence Serum $54 I have wanted to try these skin enhancement drops since they were released but was always concerned with oiliness.. however I heard these are quite nice and not oily! 


 

Jo LOVES White Rose & Lemon Leaves Fragrance Paintbrush Gel $55 I have always wanted to try a Jo Malone fragrance and now this will give me that opportunity and with a cool bonus aspect.


 

I love shopping for a cause! The Kylie Cosmetic item I want is the lip kit in the color “Smile” and that is because 100% of the proceeds go to SmileTrain which is an amazing foundation that treats untreated cleft lips. This color is no longer available but if Kylie Jenner happens to read my blog lol… giiirrlll bring that color back I am sure it will sell out immediately and raise more money for that amazing foundation who blesses children and parents all around the world.


 

Home- Firstly I just moved so of course there are things I want but also I am working hard on creating an ambiance for us to live comfortably and work from here productively as well!

 

Keurig 2.0 $120 I loved having my Keurig prior it is so convenient for folks who like drastically different coffee flavors! And this one is not only in my favorite color but one step up from the basic one! 

(Color: Oasis) 
 

Wall Shelves Set of 4 $25 I want to add a little bit of storage and cuteness over our writing desk! I think white is needed to tie in more if the color combo for the guest room! 

Upholstered Office Chair $170 I picked this one because it’s brown and white and goes with the color scheme of the room but technically we could do any color that goes with brown and white! PS I love animal print and cow print is no different!


 

Neon Lights $100 I just want to see my name in lights and at the same time I think it would add something special to the background of my videos.


I would want it to say ToriaLouise so I may need 2!

 

Experiences- I always list things I want do and aside from these things listed I really just want to see my loved ones in CA, PA, FL.. and break aka “eat” cake with everyone. (when I say “cake” I mean cake, pie, and or donuts!!)

MOIC SF– this is the museum of ice cream that took over LA and is now opening in SF and I am happy to say that we will be attending so stay tuned for pics! 

 

Color Factory SF– this is another museum type attraction that has beautiful rooms full of imagination and creativity.. sadly tickets for October are not available so Color Factory if your reading my blog please open it up for me to attend in October I am sure you will sell out October as well! (update- there ticket sales website was malfunctioning when I was in there to buy tickets so I in fact missed out on the tickets I needed) 😦

 

Mac N Cheese in Wisconsin.. just ask yourself doesn’t it sound amazing to have mac n cheese in the home of cheese heads… they even have this delicious place called MACS and it’s a mac n cheese shop! 


 

Have visitors here in IL.. I want to show people what I have seen and maybe find something new with them!!

 

Like I said these are gifts I do not expect to receive in anyway from anyone. Just seeing or hearing “Happy Birthday” to me or reading beautiful comments is what I appreciate so very much! 

Love Toria

Yummy Mushroom Soup

First I am vegetarian now so learning to cook with my new lifestyle choice. Secondly we are moving and I will be responsible to cook for my family and get us healthy! No eating out as much since I may not have a job right away… hope you enjoy my adventure!

I have been craving the mushroom soup from a specific restaurant that sales cheesecake maybe made in a factory. I don’t mention there name because every time I have gone to get said soup I have been let down by the customer service and have left even before ordering.  Anyways I have been craving it and finally decided to create a recipe based on flavors in my head and experiment. I happy to say that this first try is so yummy and my SO (who is my guinea pig) says it is better than that cheesecake selling factory.

Give it a try and let me know if you adjust anything and at the end I will tell you what I will add next time.

Ingredients-

1 stick butter (1/2 cup)

1 tsp minced garlic

1/2 of a white onion diced

2 celery stalks diced

16oz (2 square packs) mushrooms, halved

10oz heavy cream

1 8oz can broth (I used vegetable)

salt, pepper, and Parmesan cheese to taste

 

Time To Cook:

Start by prepping your veggies dicing onion and celery, also halving your mushrooms.

Heat a large saucepan and once heated add butter. When butter is melting coat the pan and add in the garlic, onions, and celery. Stir with wooden spoon until the onions are becoming translucent and at that point add in your mushrooms. Cover with pan lid to tenderize the mushrooms faster.

When you notice the mushrooms begin to shrivel or tenderize add in your heavy cream. Let simmer for about 10-15 minutes slowly stirring and lightly pressing mushrooms down at the same time. (We are basically trying to infuse the cream with mushroom flavor)

After simmering the cream with veggies you want add in your can of broth. Let this simmer for 5-10 minutes stirring and pressing again.  Now you get to add in salt, pepper, and cheese for taste. Just a reminder you don’t want to over salt or pepper the soup so I used lightly coated the top of my soup 2 and a half times and it was good.

For the cheese it depends on how cheesy you want your soup I opted for less cheesy and added to good sized dollops.

After you have come to your preferred taste in the saucepan you are going to add your mix into the blender. Blend this until it is liquid about 4 minutes. You can taste here to add more cheese or salt and pepper.

I wasn’t happy with the consistency so I added cornstarch. 1 tsp cornstarch and 1/8 cup hot water and deluted the cornstarch so no clumps were there.  I poured it into the blender and blended for 2 minutes. Let this sit for 5 minutes to thicken.

-Next time I will add sautéed mushroom pieces to garnish the soup and to add texture.

 

I hope y’all enjoy this recipe and let me know how you enhance or embellish or just enjoy it!

Lifestyle Wants: Humble Birthday Wish List

I released the materialistic items that I would want if I had the point and receive lifestyle.  I thought I would post a couple more birthday wish list because they are fun.  I consider this a humble list that I am probably going to make happen for myself.  Humble to me because I think these items are more of experiences and not materialistic items.

 

Disclaimer- If you do not like wish list.. Birthdays… hauls… or anything that has to do with this type of post.. You should probably leave or take a chance… read what I list and maybe try making a list yourself.

 

So without further ado let’s get started and thanks world wide web aka www for the pics!

 

1.Starbucks Chocolate Croissant & Black Tea Lemonade- my all the time order from SB and I will enjoy it like this a venti ice tea and 2 chocolate croissants.

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2.Bowling Fun- who doesn’t love bowling!

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3.See 2 New Places- Duh!

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4.To Make 2 New Soup Recipes- Soup is something I could eat everyday of my life.

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5.Sandwich from Gherkin’s- My current favorite sandwich spot.

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6.Try 2 New Restaurants in Bay Area- No explanation needed for this one.. This happens all year round for me!

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7.Good Dinner With Great People- in other countries this happens everyday but here only for special occasion and as I wish it could happen all the time I really appreciate the times it does happen.

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8.Take A Long Drive with My Lovey- who wouldn’t want to take a road trip with the love of their life!

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9.See An Array of Fall Leaves- The best colors of fall come from Mother Nature!

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10.Monogrammed Blanket Scarf- Not only is fall the best season ever for fashion but I am a fall baby and I embrace the scarves!!

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And there you have it folks.. I am looking forward to making this come to life for my birthday.  Don’t worry I just have one more list in plan for my birthday wish list and then the list of what I got.. So stay tuned for fun!  If you want to check out the first Birthday Wish List >>click here<<

 

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Lifestyle Wants: 33rd Birthday Wish List

I love making wish list and to be honest just list in general.. Now that my birthday is a month from today I thought it only fun and fitting to post this today.. 

This year for my birthday I am picking 10 of my top choices for birthday gifts.  Just a disclaimer I am not expecting these gifts I am just putting what I would consider my materialistic wants.  If you do not like wish list or birthday wants or birthday hauls.. >>CLICK HERE TO LEAVE<< (its an article of an adorable cat with a sad face)

If you do like these types of post or love the celebration of life we call birthdays and or you love shopping and wanting for things keep reading and.. WELCOME TO MY PAGE!!

Thank you to the linked websites for the pics!!

First a new grown purse without a cartoon character..  I picked two choices for this one but I want a mostly black designer bag that is under 200 bucks.  The reason I want black is I do not have any nice black handbags and since I am switching careers most likely I want to feel professional and empowered with a black stallion..

The first one I picked is an Arcadia black handbag that is embellished with a snake print pocket.. I found the bag at TJMAXX for $149.99 >>CLICK HERE<<

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The second bag is a Kate Spade bag that I have had my eye on for some time. What I like most is that the purse expends to give pack rats like me a little extra space.  I found the bag in the sale section on Kate Spade website for $180 >>CLICK HERE<<

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The next 3 items are makeup palettes from the same brand, Urban Decay. The reason I want these is the shadows are really good quality and I have half the collection minus the newest so now I am looking to complete the collection. The base price for these palettes are 54 bucks and sometimes not too often you can get them on sale.

2.Urban Decay Naked (1) Palette – I saw this on the Urban Decay website >>CLICK HERE<<

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3.Urban Decay Naked 2 Palette- I saw this one on Sephora’s website >>CLICK HERE<<

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4.Urban Decay Naked Ultimate Basics Palette- This palette is set to release on September 19th!

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The next couple of items I am thinking of are shoes(no surprise).. SNEAKERS!! I have wanted shoes these colors for the last year and just can not seem to commit to the purchase.  Funny thing is everyone and their mama is on to my Mauve Olive fall fashion color scheme!

5.Olive Green Nike Sneakers- I found these on the Lady Footlocker website >>CLICK HERE<<

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6.Mauve Adidas Originals Tubular Defiant- Also on Lady Footlocker website >>CLICK HERE<<

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The next 3 items are not in a group but just single items that I would love to own.

7.Clinique Happy Heart Perfume- I chose this scent because it is beautiful and I have been using the same two perfumes for years now (Tommy Girl and DKNY Delicious).  I will probably continue to use the same ones but I want a spruce it up option in my collection.  I found this one on Macy’s website and they do come in a variety of sizes.. >>CLICK HERE<<

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8.Silver Hello Kitty Handheld Mirror- No explanation needed it is too cute!!  This item I found on Ebay for about 40 bucks >>CLICK HERE<<

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9.Aqua Sky KitchenAid Blender- I need a new blender and I have the Aqua Sky KA Stand Mixer so it only makes sense that I keep it consistent with the blender. At least that is what I am telling myself to justify this want. I found this one on Crate and Barrel website for 149.99 >>CLICK HERE<<

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The final is not an item it is an experience.  

10.High Tea- I want to experience with my cousins.. the good tea and little sandwiches and little finger desserts.  

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So there you have it my 10 item bday wish list.  I am not spoiled nor am I crazy I do not expect anything on the list to be bought for me that is not the best part of my birthday.  The smiles the hugs the warm wishes all for me on October 2nd is what makes me the happiest.  I simply do the wish list for myself to have fun creating and to think about if I could have any materialistic item as many items as I want for my bday what would they be.. Also I enjoy seeing what others want and get for their bdays so others must too.

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Travel Wants: Food Middle States

Hi guys… three of my favorite things in the world are:

  1. Making List
  2. Tasting New Food
  3. Seeing New Places

Any reason to do any of those makes me a happy girl but a reason to do all three at once just makes me over the moon ecstatic!!

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I have been searching all over the internet (Google, Pinterest, etc.) finding places and food all over the country for me to hopefully travel to and eat eat eat!!!  

 

This first list is for the states in the middle(don’t judge me if I am wrong)!  I hope you enjoy and let me know if you have any other recommendations! (Also disclaimer- the pics below are not my own and have been found all over the web)

 

1.Cincinatti, Ohio

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2.Chicago, Illinois

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3.Des Moines, Iowa

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4.Minneapolis

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5.Missoula, Montana

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6.Denver, Colorado

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Okay that is my first list.. I really enjoyed working on this blog so much that I have decided to work on similar post for the rest of the country.

P.S. The featured image pic is from one of our food trips to Portland.. and that was my face of excitement for breakfast!!