I Lied To You

Hi Guys!

I have come today to be honest with you all. I have been lying to you for all these years! I’m sorry!

Yes I have depression.. anxiety.. diabetes.. fibromyalgia.. and making list after list does in fact keep me calm!

But besides this I have not been myself on here or on YouTube! I have been trying my hardest to portray the characteristics of the popular girls. Why because I wanted to be liked by the world and be successful at this life.

I can’t hold up to this facade anymore it is so tiring. I need to be myself! TBH it is not working either so what do I have to lose!?

I am Victoria and I am a city girl who is country at heart. I don’t think I will ever have a modern home.. I want a country farmhouse home but currently just have a normal home that is not decorated to the nines.

I am quirky and nerdy and dress kind of weird.. I don’t mind being in what some don’t considered trendy clothing as long as I am dressed cute and comfy to me!

I live for food, fashion(my style), and beauty! I try my best to incorporate food into my fashion and beauty 95% of the time! I am the biggest animal lover (also incorporated into my fashion) and cry almost everyday because of animal videos or looking at adoption websites!

I am overly sensitive like more sensitive than most young children.. if there is a story on about Christmas or love or a talent show on tv I will cry! Not just cry but ball my eyes out!

If I could have Christmas decor up 24/7 365 days a year.. I WOULD!! I am going to try doing Christmas at Halloween time this year coming! I want to be Mrs. Claus and decorating my home as the North Pole! I have believed in Santa for 34 years and will never not!

I am an organized dreamer.. I dream of one day marrying my best friend but have accepted that that may not happen and as long as I am with him and we are happy in life I will be wonderful. Just like I dream of being a mom via adoption because I don’t want to be pregnant.. but also accept that I may just be a fur mom and the cool aunt to my nieces and nephews! I dream of homes.. food.. travel.. even my wardrobe picks for seasons to come even if I will never have these things. But the reason I say organized is because it starts as a list and ends in a slideshow show presentation sometimes with a buying plan. I can show you my organization on another blog. However I think I dream so much because of things that I have been through and it helps me hide in oblivion behind sparkles and sequins!

Things that have happened to me were the reason I acted out and made poor choices at times in life or wanted to be someone else.. but I have prayed continually to God for forgiveness and guidance for myself and the ones who victimized me! I have been forgiven by God and know that everyone makes mistakes.. my mistakes have everything to do with who I am!

My family especially my SO.. my mom.. and my goddaughter.. and all of my family also have helped me to be a better me and truly mean everything to me and if I could do little things or big things to make them happy.. that is my goal in life! It’s makes me happy to see the ones I love happy!

I HOPE YALL CAN ACCEPT ME FOR ME!

I want to revamp my blog theme and my YouTube site.. I need to be myself. I love being funny while talking about the things I love. It doesn’t matter if I am successful at these things as much as I would like to be.. I can no longer do this to try and be a popular one.. I just need to be me.. and if the world likes me then it’s a blessing but if they don’t then that’s okay because I love me and that is a bigger blessing!

Until next time my pretties!!

Love Toria Louise

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Christmas Gift Shopping

Heelllooo World,
I absolutely love Christmas, it has been my favorite holiday since I was tiny. In fact in 34 years of my life I have never not believed in Santa.  Some of you might say I am crazy if I believe in a man in his red suit who has flying reindeer and delivers presents to all of the children of the world. That’s okay for you to believe or not believe you are entitled to your own opinion. As am I!


But let go of the object… the man called Santa and listen to the feelings. The feelings of wanting to give, wanting to make someone happy, that warmth that hits even the coldest people, the feel of magic in the air that comes with the nostalgics of Christmas. Also if you are like me and a faithful Christian than we celebrate the birthday of Jesus. Jesus is the reason for the season!


Normally I spend a few months collecting items that I think will make my loved ones the happiest on Christmas Day.. Whether it be of sincere or comic value!  This year this is not the case… Not only have I been consumed with my move and getting adapted to this state we now call home… but let’s keep it real.. I am not working and do not have that kind of money as I am a stay at home cat mom.


So I thought why not do something that I have always wanted to do.. A yearly themed gift.. And for the kids who have no use for a gift like this something different. No what should I do?  I know for those I am sending a Christmas card to I want to send an ornament to mark the change in our lives. BTW This is not the ornament! 


For the gifts.. I am thinking the theme should be “Mugs & Socks”.. I think this would be the perfect gift of coziness and warmth. Like I am giving my loved ones a hug from afar! Now we know I am not going to DIY socks because I am not that crafty lol! But should I DIY the mugs with a few Pinterest styles? 


I would love to hear your thoughts about doing Christmas presents like this… I am definitely going to try it and if it works out this way I think I might do themed birthday gifts for 2018.
Until next time my pretties,

Toria

5 Items: Burlington Coat Factory

Hi Guys,
This is the beginning of greatness!! I would like to start a new series all about bargain shopping! I am a bargain shopper by blood from my mama… and I can clearance hunt with the best of them aka my mom and aunts!

My family loves to shop… we used to and if we can.. we will still eat our meals on turkey-day all while planning our plan of attack on the sales that are about to unleash! Maybe the love of shopping for most of us is why I truly believe in retail therapy! LOL!

This series will be called 5 items and it is really just 5 bargain items from different stores… sometimes I will give myself a challenge when buying these items or like today just great items I found at a really good price!

Today’s 5 items are from one of my favorite stores and that is Burlington Coat Factory (BFC), this store is a great place to buy clothing, fashion accessories, shoes, beauty, home goods and so much more. I almost found a bit of it all… lol!!

The first item I found was a men’s denim button up that I thought would be cute as a light throw for those days where the sun is out like summer but there is also that lovely fall breeze! This is a Guess shirt that originally retailed for 89 bucks but I was able to purchase it on clearance for just $17!


The second item I found also is an item made by Guess… but these are slides and unless you live under a rock then you know slides took over this year like never before! I was looking at the Guess slides online and when I saw them in BFC I jumped on them! They retail for 25 bucks and I bought them for $15… not as big as a deal as the first item but saving is saving!


The third item of course is a notebook because stationary, books, and journals is always a stop at every store… this notebook is cute, pink, and motivational! The notebook retails for 14 bucks and I bought it for $4!


The fourth item I found was not something I needed but something I wanted for the new place. I saw this and thought this would be so cute in my dining area with the rest of my farmhousey items! The canister retails for 10 bucks and I bought it for $5!


The last item was not actually an item for me but a gift for Lani… she turned 13 recently… becoming a teenage girl, getting into makeup, becoming a young woman and I knew she would need to find her scent! So I picked up a 1D perfume that smells divine and the bottle is so precious! If I can find another I will add one to my collection. This perfume retails for 16 bucks and I bought it for $7.


And there you have it the 5 items from BFC.. what do you think? Let’s run some numbers:

Retail Value: $145 – Purchased Value:$48 – Value Saved:$97

I will take that 97 bucks any day… this is why I love the being a Deal Hunter! I hope you enjoyed this new series.. I look forward to the future of this series of course… it’s all about shopping!! I am excited to go for other stores and challenges. The challenges can be a budget or a look alike outfit from a magazine.. I am going to try and be creative with the challenges! If you have any challenge ideas or stores you want to see me try.. Just let me know!

Love Toria

Birthday Wish List 2017

Hi Guys,

It’s that time of the year again…. MY BIRTHDAY!!!!

That means… this is my annual Birthday Wish List! Unfortunately in this day an age disclaimers are needed to hopefully avoid one of the internet trolls lol..

*DISCLAIMER* Do not read much into my list that I post it is basically my if I could have anything what would that look like. I am not one who makes a list and gets everything on it or even anything on it as gifts. I normally buy myself things on my wish list that I really want! I do not expect gifts from anyone just love and cake haha.. Also I want to know what items would be on your wish list?? 

All I really want for my bday is.. God’s blessings, good vibes, great food, and a functioning world that allows me to grow old with my loved ones!! 

Let’s get this started.. 

Fashion: I love clothing, shoes, and all things fashion. (I dream of giant two level walk in closet) I shop year round and would consider myself somewhat of a pro at shopping. I do not worry about what everyone else wears or thinks is in trend.. I simply just buy what I like and what makes me feel great!

Adidas EQT Support ADV in Lavender Monochrome $110 I have wanted these for a little while now and just think they are the most adorable sneakers ever.. I know pastel colors are technically spring colors but I love wearing what others think are “seasonal” colors all year round! 

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(women’s size 10)

Vans Mono Canvas Old Skool in Skyway (light blue) $55 I have always wanted a pair of these but never wanted to buy the basic colors and now these have arrived in my sight.

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(women’s size 10.5)

Rue 21 Plus Camo 3pc Sweatsuit $57 (for all three)- yes I know these may be lounge wear or look like PJ’s but they look amazing!

Hoodie $19

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(women’s 2X)

Cardigan Duster $19

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(women’s 3X)

Leggings $19

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(women’s 2X)

Fila Trayton Hoodie $68– I have these Fila Grant Hill’s that I wanted when I was in 8th grade and I bought them not long ago but now all I need is a hoodie to wear them with. The thing I love about this one is the brown with the other colors because I can pair with brown leggings!

 

 (men’s 2X or 3X- I love my hoodies huge and comfy like a blanket)

Velour Tracksuit $35 I know everyone had the Juicy Couture velour track suits a billion years ago now but I never had one! I think these are so cute and being cute and exercisy is amazing.. basically 60% of my wardrobe is cute as a button and athletic! 


(women’s 2X)


Tech- I feel I am always in a constant need to upgrade my tech game in order to better my blogging and YouTube work (especially if I want to make it a full time career)!

Smart Watch- I am listing 3 different ones only because there are different brands and styles out here. I want a watch that will track my steps, calendar reminders, allows me to text, and can answer/make phone calls. Not to mention I always wanted to be a Power Ranger!

Fossil Gen 3 Smartwatch $275 I love the two tone of the rose gold and navy.. it just looks classic! 


(Q VENTURE ROSE TWO TONE)

Michael Kors Bradshaw $350 I think this is the boujee one of the bunch… the most expensive for sure! But it looks like a regular watch face so kind of a disguise however it’s a touchscreen and it’s eggplant colored metal! 


(Plum color)

Apple Watch Series 1 $269 This is the most common smart watch you see on everyone’s wrist. It’s like the PSL of smart watches.. I am okay with being basic and having an Apple Watch as long as it looks semi girly like this one lol!


(38mm rose gold with pink sand sports band) 

Laptop- I need a common but specific laptop.. I found this one.. I could go for the Intel Core i7 with more memory and bigger hard drive but this is the basics of what I need to better edit my videos!

HP – 15.6″ Touch-Screen Laptop – Intel Core i5 – 8GB Memory – 1TB Hard Drive – HP finish in jet black $529 


(Click here for this one)  

Film Editing Software- VideoStudio Ultimate X10 for Windows $100 I could use a different one as long as it’s compatible with the laptop above.

 

Beauty- who would I be if I didn’t include beauty on a wish list.. I love reviewing beauty products.. So I kept it easy and picked my 4 top items from my Sephora “LOVES” list. And a KC product! 

Glow Recipe Watermelon Glow Sleeping Mask $45 Doesn’t this just sound amazing and looks divine! I want watermelon all over my face!

 

Moschino Pink Fresh Couture Perfume 1.0 oz $45 I have wanted the original windex perfume for the bottle but knew I wouldn’t like the notes.. but they released this one and it’s the bottle with my scents and color!!! 


 

Farsali Unicorn Essence Serum $54 I have wanted to try these skin enhancement drops since they were released but was always concerned with oiliness.. however I heard these are quite nice and not oily! 


 

Jo LOVES White Rose & Lemon Leaves Fragrance Paintbrush Gel $55 I have always wanted to try a Jo Malone fragrance and now this will give me that opportunity and with a cool bonus aspect.


 

I love shopping for a cause! The Kylie Cosmetic item I want is the lip kit in the color “Smile” and that is because 100% of the proceeds go to SmileTrain which is an amazing foundation that treats untreated cleft lips. This color is no longer available but if Kylie Jenner happens to read my blog lol… giiirrlll bring that color back I am sure it will sell out immediately and raise more money for that amazing foundation who blesses children and parents all around the world.


 

Home- Firstly I just moved so of course there are things I want but also I am working hard on creating an ambiance for us to live comfortably and work from here productively as well!

 

Keurig 2.0 $120 I loved having my Keurig prior it is so convenient for folks who like drastically different coffee flavors! And this one is not only in my favorite color but one step up from the basic one! 

(Color: Oasis) 
 

Wall Shelves Set of 4 $25 I want to add a little bit of storage and cuteness over our writing desk! I think white is needed to tie in more if the color combo for the guest room! 

Upholstered Office Chair $170 I picked this one because it’s brown and white and goes with the color scheme of the room but technically we could do any color that goes with brown and white! PS I love animal print and cow print is no different!


 

Neon Lights $100 I just want to see my name in lights and at the same time I think it would add something special to the background of my videos.


I would want it to say ToriaLouise so I may need 2!

 

Experiences- I always list things I want do and aside from these things listed I really just want to see my loved ones in CA, PA, FL.. and break aka “eat” cake with everyone. (when I say “cake” I mean cake, pie, and or donuts!!)

MOIC SF– this is the museum of ice cream that took over LA and is now opening in SF and I am happy to say that we will be attending so stay tuned for pics! 

 

Color Factory SF– this is another museum type attraction that has beautiful rooms full of imagination and creativity.. sadly tickets for October are not available so Color Factory if your reading my blog please open it up for me to attend in October I am sure you will sell out October as well! (update- there ticket sales website was malfunctioning when I was in there to buy tickets so I in fact missed out on the tickets I needed) 😦

 

Mac N Cheese in Wisconsin.. just ask yourself doesn’t it sound amazing to have mac n cheese in the home of cheese heads… they even have this delicious place called MACS and it’s a mac n cheese shop! 


 

Have visitors here in IL.. I want to show people what I have seen and maybe find something new with them!!

 

Like I said these are gifts I do not expect to receive in anyway from anyone. Just seeing or hearing “Happy Birthday” to me or reading beautiful comments is what I appreciate so very much! 

Love Toria

Lifestyle Wants: Fun Hair Needed

The reason I say need is because I need something new for my hair and what better than a vivid fun bright color! After all it will be my birthday and I will color my hair if I want to!

 

Last year I went to an amazing salon in East Stroudsburg PA (I went to Sereena, how I wish she was here in the Bay Area) and got “Raspberry Sorbet” which is a violet fuchsia ombre and it turned out so amazing.. And I mean so so super amazing that it makes me want to take the plunge and do a whole head of color.  

 

>>>>>Click here to check out the amazing Hot Heads Salon in PA<<<<<

 

Here is my amazing hair do… And yes that is Sereena’s Instagram so support her!  @hairbysereena

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Now I want to show you a few of my color options(10 of them).. as you already know I am not going for a so called ordinary hair color.. I am taking a chance and adding magic into my hair.  Please let me know what color you like most.

 

1.Blue

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2.Orange

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3.Green

green-hair

4.Mint

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5.Mauve

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6.Navy

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7.Pink/Purple

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8.Teal

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9.Grey

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10.Blue/Grey

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Okay so I am hoping with in two weeks my hair will be dyed one of these fantastic colors and to be honest they are listed with my top pick being number one.  It’s only hair so I might as well have fun with it!

Also how are you feeling about these list.. I have tons of journals full of list and they are my absolute favorite thing to do in my down time.

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Moving Wants:Guest Room

That’s right you read the title correctomundo… we are moving again.

 

We have moved each year since we have been together but this time we are moving for his work and moving to another state.  I have not made the announcement of where just yet so I would like to see the guesses in the comments.  I will say we are getting much more space for way less.  We are not exactly sure on the moving date but it will be within the next 18 months I suspect and you know nothing wrong with planning ahead!

 

This series is all about the list of things that I need or want from room to room.  This gives you a look into my decor hopefuls and I can not wait to show you how it turns out when we finally move in.

 

I am excited for the whole process but one of the coolest rooms will be the guest room which will also double as my filming space for YouTube!  That means no having to to take down the lights and cameras unless we have guests coming to stay.. and yes we will have a room for guests to visit since we are moving out of state.

 

BTW thank you internet for the great inspirational pics!

 

Bed- (we already have an extra full size mattress)

  • Cream Metal Bed Frame

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Bedding- Ruffled

  • Gray

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  • Mauve

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  • Taupe

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Furniture- White/Cream

  • Nightstand

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  • Tall Dresser

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Lighting- Silver Mercury Glass

  • Bedside

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  • Floor Lamp

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Accent Furniture

  • Gray Sectional Sofa Bed

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  • Mauve Accent Chair

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  • Marble Side Table

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  • Floor Mirror

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  • Crate Bookcase

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Accent Decor

  • Ruffled Curtains

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  • Mauve Fur Pillows

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  • Taupe Sequined Pillows

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  • Cream Ruffle Pillow

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  • Taupe Rug

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  • Mauve Gallery Wall

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  • Mercury Glass Bookcase Decor

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So that is what I have in mind so far and I can not wait to get into our new place and hopefully decorate to look as close to my vision as possible.  Stay tuned for more rooms and more looking into my busy mind.

 

Also if you want to see some Travel Wants: Food just click ! I am going to post updates to all of these post with food I get to try and stuff I buy.. So of course I will be updating here and YouTube but also recent current time updates on Snap Chat and Insta which I have listed below!!

 

Love you guys..

 

SoMe

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Lifestyle Wants: Figuring A Skincare Routine

I am semi new to the skincare process… meaning I have always washed and exfoliated my face.  I have always taken off my make up with a wipe and have moisturized.. But that is it and there so much more to having healthy skin.

 

But I am very skittish to slop the creams, serums, and other stuff all over my face without knowing if there will be a certain reaction to it.  The types of reactions I am prone to is 1. Nauseousness from the smell of the product and 2. Very seldom I do get a skin irritation from certain products that I yet to confirm which products those are.

 

Due to the 2 negative reactions I could have- 1. being avoidable and 1. only try and test will help… I have kind of put my skincare on the back burner and now… I have combo dry skin that is oily in some spots but dry everywhere!!!!!

 

Now that I am going to work on organizing my life with the help of list list list.. I figure I can routinely add in skincare.  Make time for myself  to relax while all the same take care of this very important thing in life SKIN!

 

Here is what I am thinking the routine should be for AM and PM and I would appreciate any feedback and or suggestions on products.

 

After Wake-Up

1.Cleanser- Daily

2.Toner- Daily

3.Rough Exfoliant- Every 3 Days(opposite to night exfoliants)

4.Target Treatment- As Needed

5.Serum-Daily

6.Light Skin Mask- Prior To Full Face Makeup

7.Sunscreen- Daily

 

Before Sleep

1.Make Up Remover- As Needed

2.Relaxation Cleanser- Nightly

3.Gentle Exfoliant- Every 3 Nights(opposite to day exfoliants)

4.Target Treatment- As Needed

5.Night Serum- Nightly

6.Relaxation Moisturizer- Nightly

7.Skin Mask- Twice A Week(opposite to pre-makeup mask)

 

Specific-

Lips:

1.Scrub- Daily

2.Balm- Daily

3.Mask- Once a week

4.Moisturizer- Nightly

 

Eye:

1.Cooling- Once A Week Daytime

3.Patches- Once A Week Nighttime

 

Nose:

1.Blackhead Remover- Once A Week Nighttime

 

All of the above came from me doing and watching plenty of research and combining a routine that seemed feasible for my own life or the one I am working up to.  It may seem like a lot of work but once I get into the groove… it should become second nature and easy to do with hands tied behind my back.

 

For SPF we all know how important it is to apply this everyday rain or shine.  The good thing about makeup nowadays is that most of it comes stocked with SPF.  My favorite foundation is IT Cosmetics CC+ Cream Illumination with SPF 50+, it is my go to and it is amazing.. I recommend for everyone out there.  I can skip the face sunscreen in the AM if I am doing a full face when using that foundation but to be honest I do anyways only because why not double the protection.

 

I have so many more routine type blogs to type out for you.. Makeup, Hair, AM routine, PM routine (non skin care lol)!  And if there is a specific one you want to see just let me know!  Now begins my favorite part of trial and error… shopping taking it home and trying it out.  I will post haul video’s on my YouTube <<click<< and when I have a final product routine I will post on here on there and everywhere.  

 

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