Happy New Years Eve!
2017 really took me for a ride that I was not ready for and I am still dealing with!
First off my SO and I worked for the same company going into 2017 and we went into 2017 knowing that the company was being acquired. No matter if we stayed with the acquiring company or went with a different company we knew we had to move out of state. Not just for the type of work we do but also the Bay Area is just to expensive to live a comfortable life! (I do pray one day we will be back!)
In January of 2017 I received a phone call from my sister that my father was really ill. I don’t think I can explain in words the amount of emotions that came about when I received this call. Emotions mainly of anger towards myself because I had 33 years to get close to my dad and I chose to be angry because I felt he never wanted anything to do with me. My SO and I left that weekend and drove 10 hours (because of the weather) each way to see him. When we got to my dad he was waiting for us! We spent that weekend with him and it was the last time I saw my dad.
In April my SO decided to take a job in Illinois, in the beginning of May he moved to IL and we decided I would finish out June here in Cali and make move with him.
On May 23, 2017 my dad passed away just 7 days before his 60th birthday. Again I was mad (TBH still mad at myself) I didn’t make time to go down to visit him just one more time before he passed. We actually buried him on his 60th birthday! Maybe one day I will go into my emotions with more detail but I still haven’t come to terms with it.
On June 30th, I left this company I thought would be around for a very long time.. and I truly enjoyed working at. I met so many great friends and learned many skills. I was heart broken to make this decision but since the new company wasn’t going to extend my position I knew it was better to let go of this chapter in my life.
In July we packed up our apartment and sent most of our belongings to IL. August was bittersweet.. cousin was married and had a beautiful wedding.. I planned a birthday party for August birthdays like my mom and goddaughter since I was going to miss them first time ever.. but my family surprised me with a going away party.
Shortly after I made the move to IL. Leaving behind everyone and everything I have ever known.. easy to say my anxiety and depression have been at an all time high since (again I will save this for another post).
From August till now I have been trying to get used to life in a new place without the convenience of having my family and friends physically with me. I have slowly been finding my confidence in learning the way to Target or Walmart or the grocery store.
Fortunately I have been able to make some visits home and spend time with my family. Also I am very lucky to have had visitors here. The one thing I wish is that I knew of more things to show my guests.. because I am seeing this beautiful place for the first time myself.
My cousins came in October!
Our beautiful goddaughter came for Thanksgiving!
And my cousin came out for a weekend to drop my mom off for the month of December and the rest of the holidays!
And now here we are December 31st and it has been one eventful year! A year of events that I don’t think I could have planned for!
I hope tonight is amazing for you all and please don’t drink and drive or let anyone you know drink or drive! Also count your blessings life can change in an instant..
Tomorrow lets welcome 2018 with open arms.. I will post my hopes!
Again Happy New Year Eve.. May all your dreams come true in 2018!