MY XMAS WISH LIST 2017

Hi Guys,

Merry Christmas! Can you believe it’s here already?

This year has been super crazy.. Lots of changes in my life! Two main ones.. I lost my dad and no I still haven’t dealt with my feelings! Then right after my SO and I took a leap and moved away from everything and everyone I have ever known including my beautiful goddaughter who is like my child and my amazing mom! Again I am dealing with both these feelings on a daily basis so as you can imagine my life is full of anxiety!

I always put out a “wish” list not for anyone to buy me things but just because it is a fun list that I often write out a bunch of times throughout the season. If you don’t like the whole “what I want” or “what I got” type articles and videos…Sorry not sorry but these are some of my favorite things that I truly enjoy!

***Of course thanks to the World Wide Web for the pics and links!***

The first thing on my list is probably the most expensive item (they will descend in price) on here but it is definitely needed. I need a new laptop not only to continue my blog writing or YouTube creating but I will be a freshman in college come JAN2018 and of course I need the laptop to study and work. Yes I have one but it took a dive into the world of unusable metal! Ideally I would want one that had a good amount of storage and an Intel Core processor of at least i5.

$800 at Best Buy

The next item on my list is something I have wanted for a little while but never really had a good enough reason to buy one.. well unless wanting to pretend to be a Power Ranger was a good enough reason. If you didn’t guess it.. I want a smart watch! Having to be in class soon and not being able to pull out my phone for everything is my reason. I depend on my phone to stay in constant contact with my mom, my family, and my moms health!

$360 Target

The third item on my list is something I have been interested in but have not purchased since I am not completely the label junkie and just use things that look good and make me feel great. But I do love my handbags and I have always been a fan of Rebecca Minkoff.. I do have one of the Mini MAC bags. But I have always looked at her more structured bags like the MAB or even the Regan satchel.. So yes I would love to add a structured black bag to my collection.

Rebecca Minkoff Large Regan Satchel $350

And why not add in a Rebecca Minkoff wallet to go with!

$85

No list of mine would be complete without clothing, shoes, and beauty items.. soooo…

My clothing item is just a sweatsuit matching pieces from Rainbow Shops

Hoodie $11

Pants $11

My shoes two pairs:

1-Checkerboard Vans

Nordstrom $50

2-Fenty Faux Fur Slides

Ruvilla $90

And for beauty I have three things with my eyes on them:

1-Watermelon Sleeping Mask

Sephora $45

2-Fenty Trophy Wife

Sephora $34

3-Tommy Girl Perfume

Macy’s $57

Finally my emotional wants for this coming year are four simple things. Firstly I want to strengthen my relationship with the Lord (always a work in progress) second I want to see my loved ones as much as possible throughout the year (especially my mom, goddaughter, and dogs) third is a natural for me.. I want to see somewhere new or maybe two places and eat good food (if this happens I will try to blog) and fourth aka last but not least I want to be successful with school, with my blog, and YouTube channel!

That is all I have this year… I hope you guys have a blessed Christmas and that the new year is full of happiness and great health for us all. May all your dreams come true in 2018!

For those who do not celebrate Christmas.. Happy Holidays!

Love Toria

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I Lied To You

Hi Guys!

I have come today to be honest with you all. I have been lying to you for all these years! I’m sorry!

Yes I have depression.. anxiety.. diabetes.. fibromyalgia.. and making list after list does in fact keep me calm!

But besides this I have not been myself on here or on YouTube! I have been trying my hardest to portray the characteristics of the popular girls. Why because I wanted to be liked by the world and be successful at this life.

I can’t hold up to this facade anymore it is so tiring. I need to be myself! TBH it is not working either so what do I have to lose!?

I am Victoria and I am a city girl who is country at heart. I don’t think I will ever have a modern home.. I want a country farmhouse home but currently just have a normal home that is not decorated to the nines.

I am quirky and nerdy and dress kind of weird.. I don’t mind being in what some don’t considered trendy clothing as long as I am dressed cute and comfy to me!

I live for food, fashion(my style), and beauty! I try my best to incorporate food into my fashion and beauty 95% of the time! I am the biggest animal lover (also incorporated into my fashion) and cry almost everyday because of animal videos or looking at adoption websites!

I am overly sensitive like more sensitive than most young children.. if there is a story on about Christmas or love or a talent show on tv I will cry! Not just cry but ball my eyes out!

If I could have Christmas decor up 24/7 365 days a year.. I WOULD!! I am going to try doing Christmas at Halloween time this year coming! I want to be Mrs. Claus and decorating my home as the North Pole! I have believed in Santa for 34 years and will never not!

I am an organized dreamer.. I dream of one day marrying my best friend but have accepted that that may not happen and as long as I am with him and we are happy in life I will be wonderful. Just like I dream of being a mom via adoption because I don’t want to be pregnant.. but also accept that I may just be a fur mom and the cool aunt to my nieces and nephews! I dream of homes.. food.. travel.. even my wardrobe picks for seasons to come even if I will never have these things. But the reason I say organized is because it starts as a list and ends in a slideshow show presentation sometimes with a buying plan. I can show you my organization on another blog. However I think I dream so much because of things that I have been through and it helps me hide in oblivion behind sparkles and sequins!

Things that have happened to me were the reason I acted out and made poor choices at times in life or wanted to be someone else.. but I have prayed continually to God for forgiveness and guidance for myself and the ones who victimized me! I have been forgiven by God and know that everyone makes mistakes.. my mistakes have everything to do with who I am!

My family especially my SO.. my mom.. and my goddaughter.. and all of my family also have helped me to be a better me and truly mean everything to me and if I could do little things or big things to make them happy.. that is my goal in life! It’s makes me happy to see the ones I love happy!

I HOPE YALL CAN ACCEPT ME FOR ME!

I want to revamp my blog theme and my YouTube site.. I need to be myself. I love being funny while talking about the things I love. It doesn’t matter if I am successful at these things as much as I would like to be.. I can no longer do this to try and be a popular one.. I just need to be me.. and if the world likes me then it’s a blessing but if they don’t then that’s okay because I love me and that is a bigger blessing!

Until next time my pretties!!

Love Toria Louise

Christmas Gift Shopping

Heelllooo World,
I absolutely love Christmas, it has been my favorite holiday since I was tiny. In fact in 34 years of my life I have never not believed in Santa.  Some of you might say I am crazy if I believe in a man in his red suit who has flying reindeer and delivers presents to all of the children of the world. That’s okay for you to believe or not believe you are entitled to your own opinion. As am I!


But let go of the object… the man called Santa and listen to the feelings. The feelings of wanting to give, wanting to make someone happy, that warmth that hits even the coldest people, the feel of magic in the air that comes with the nostalgics of Christmas. Also if you are like me and a faithful Christian than we celebrate the birthday of Jesus. Jesus is the reason for the season!


Normally I spend a few months collecting items that I think will make my loved ones the happiest on Christmas Day.. Whether it be of sincere or comic value!  This year this is not the case… Not only have I been consumed with my move and getting adapted to this state we now call home… but let’s keep it real.. I am not working and do not have that kind of money as I am a stay at home cat mom.


So I thought why not do something that I have always wanted to do.. A yearly themed gift.. And for the kids who have no use for a gift like this something different. No what should I do?  I know for those I am sending a Christmas card to I want to send an ornament to mark the change in our lives. BTW This is not the ornament! 


For the gifts.. I am thinking the theme should be “Mugs & Socks”.. I think this would be the perfect gift of coziness and warmth. Like I am giving my loved ones a hug from afar! Now we know I am not going to DIY socks because I am not that crafty lol! But should I DIY the mugs with a few Pinterest styles? 


I would love to hear your thoughts about doing Christmas presents like this… I am definitely going to try it and if it works out this way I think I might do themed birthday gifts for 2018.
Until next time my pretties,

Toria

5 Items: Burlington Coat Factory

Hi Guys,
This is the beginning of greatness!! I would like to start a new series all about bargain shopping! I am a bargain shopper by blood from my mama… and I can clearance hunt with the best of them aka my mom and aunts!

My family loves to shop… we used to and if we can.. we will still eat our meals on turkey-day all while planning our plan of attack on the sales that are about to unleash! Maybe the love of shopping for most of us is why I truly believe in retail therapy! LOL!

This series will be called 5 items and it is really just 5 bargain items from different stores… sometimes I will give myself a challenge when buying these items or like today just great items I found at a really good price!

Today’s 5 items are from one of my favorite stores and that is Burlington Coat Factory (BFC), this store is a great place to buy clothing, fashion accessories, shoes, beauty, home goods and so much more. I almost found a bit of it all… lol!!

The first item I found was a men’s denim button up that I thought would be cute as a light throw for those days where the sun is out like summer but there is also that lovely fall breeze! This is a Guess shirt that originally retailed for 89 bucks but I was able to purchase it on clearance for just $17!


The second item I found also is an item made by Guess… but these are slides and unless you live under a rock then you know slides took over this year like never before! I was looking at the Guess slides online and when I saw them in BFC I jumped on them! They retail for 25 bucks and I bought them for $15… not as big as a deal as the first item but saving is saving!


The third item of course is a notebook because stationary, books, and journals is always a stop at every store… this notebook is cute, pink, and motivational! The notebook retails for 14 bucks and I bought it for $4!


The fourth item I found was not something I needed but something I wanted for the new place. I saw this and thought this would be so cute in my dining area with the rest of my farmhousey items! The canister retails for 10 bucks and I bought it for $5!


The last item was not actually an item for me but a gift for Lani… she turned 13 recently… becoming a teenage girl, getting into makeup, becoming a young woman and I knew she would need to find her scent! So I picked up a 1D perfume that smells divine and the bottle is so precious! If I can find another I will add one to my collection. This perfume retails for 16 bucks and I bought it for $7.


And there you have it the 5 items from BFC.. what do you think? Let’s run some numbers:

Retail Value: $145 – Purchased Value:$48 – Value Saved:$97

I will take that 97 bucks any day… this is why I love the being a Deal Hunter! I hope you enjoyed this new series.. I look forward to the future of this series of course… it’s all about shopping!! I am excited to go for other stores and challenges. The challenges can be a budget or a look alike outfit from a magazine.. I am going to try and be creative with the challenges! If you have any challenge ideas or stores you want to see me try.. Just let me know!

Love Toria

Oh Life..

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First things first let me just say I know I have been gone for an extra week or two, but I have been so stressed out with passing’s in my family, starting this thing called day shifts at work and just feeling under the weather in general.  I can’t promise that I will be back with more post but I can promise to just keep writing.  What can you do that is LIFE!
When amazing opportunities arise what is it that you are supposed to do, are you supposed to jump on every single thing that comes available but then doesn’t that turn into things never being enough for you and couldn’t that mean that you are never happy and you are forever chasing something.  Then there is choice b which means that you sit back until the opportunity slaps you in the face.  For me the company that I currently work for has been the only company that I initiated my career here by going online and applying and actually getting the job.  Once I was in here I was so eager to learn everything I could and move on up and I actually love the importance of what I do not only for the company and myself but for our guests.
Now comes the difficult part, I do not make enough money to survive for myself but for my mom to survive either and that is most important.  I need to have money so she can eat throughout the year-month-week-and day, not only that but she has to have medicine to live on.  To top it off I want to spoil her and give her anything and everything she could want in life.  I also want a family of my own and be there for people I love to lean on.  We all know that life is short and not promised to us life on earth is a gift and we should be thankful to have it and for what we have.
In life I want to write my daily feelings out and post them online and have followers who enjoy what I write and maybe get inspired from it, yes that’s a blogger but I also want to vlog; I also want to write books and greeting cards .  I would like to design clothing, rooms, makeup, food and beverages, and parties.. I want to be successful at my designs that my boutique and restaurants make me wealthy enough to develop a few charity outreach programs for my fellow human race and animals in need.  That is my goal, my dream is to be healthy and financially stable enough to live a comfy life with my family.
Let’s not lie I am getting older and maybe I have been getting a little discouraged in the past, but now more so then ever I am confident that God will bless me with my goals or with what is supposed to be will be.  I believe in myself and Trust in God!  All I know is to keep doing what I have been doing, keep trying or “Just Keep Swimming” and definitely keep praying and an open communication with the man upstairs listen to his words.  I would love feed back and suggestions on my goals and dreams!  Until next time my pretties..