Hello 2018

Hi Guys,

Goodbye 2017 & Hello 2018!

Can I start off by saying.. I hope everyone had an amazing and safe NYE.. and everyone got home safe!

2018 and the unknown of what could happen has me super anxious.. but I have been working with a therapist to learn techniques to battle the best of my abilities.  Because of the techniques I am learning I have developed some hopes of what I would like to come of this year! I say hopes because I don’t do New Years Resolutions.. I feel resolutions are meant to be broken at least for me!

Hope to me means stuff that I am hoping to happen but if it is not meant to be no harm no foul. All in God’s timing!

The first few are mental hopes:

  • I want my relationship with God to be as strong as ever!
  • I don’t want to feel a need to have so many things and possibly become one step closer to a minimalist rather than a hoarder.
  • I want to be able to learn the skills to allow myself not be so anxious or depressed.
  • I love shopping but I love it a little to much and honestly feel sometime shopping is the only thing that helps me process emotions.

Next a few physical hopes:

  • I want my diabetes and all health issues under control.
  • I would like to develop a skin care routine for day and night.
  • I would like to develop a healthier lifestyle with food and exercise.
  • I would love to help a few of my loved ones develop a healthier lifestyle if they would like.

Finally personal achievements:

  • I want to be successful in school.. this is a new adventure I never thought I would get the chance to go on.
  • I want the relationship with my SO to keep growing in a positive way.
  • I want to see our family in CA and PA as much as possible throughout the year.
  • Travel to a place I never thought I would see.
  • Last but not least I want to develop a closer relationship with my sisters and family in Oxnard. I have wanted this before my dad passed away but since he has passed I need it in a sense.

Of course I have a few more wishes (they are really for God’s timing) but if the ones listed get started it would be the best year ever!

I am so excited for the possibilities of the year to come. I also pray nothing but blessings for whoever is reading this post or any post of mine. I pray for blessings for the world.

May all of your dreams.. your wildest dreams come true this year!

Love,

Toria

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MY XMAS WISH LIST 2017

Hi Guys,

Merry Christmas! Can you believe it’s here already?

This year has been super crazy.. Lots of changes in my life! Two main ones.. I lost my dad and no I still haven’t dealt with my feelings! Then right after my SO and I took a leap and moved away from everything and everyone I have ever known including my beautiful goddaughter who is like my child and my amazing mom! Again I am dealing with both these feelings on a daily basis so as you can imagine my life is full of anxiety!

I always put out a “wish” list not for anyone to buy me things but just because it is a fun list that I often write out a bunch of times throughout the season. If you don’t like the whole “what I want” or “what I got” type articles and videos…Sorry not sorry but these are some of my favorite things that I truly enjoy!

***Of course thanks to the World Wide Web for the pics and links!***

The first thing on my list is probably the most expensive item (they will descend in price) on here but it is definitely needed. I need a new laptop not only to continue my blog writing or YouTube creating but I will be a freshman in college come JAN2018 and of course I need the laptop to study and work. Yes I have one but it took a dive into the world of unusable metal! Ideally I would want one that had a good amount of storage and an Intel Core processor of at least i5.

$800 at Best Buy

The next item on my list is something I have wanted for a little while but never really had a good enough reason to buy one.. well unless wanting to pretend to be a Power Ranger was a good enough reason. If you didn’t guess it.. I want a smart watch! Having to be in class soon and not being able to pull out my phone for everything is my reason. I depend on my phone to stay in constant contact with my mom, my family, and my moms health!

$360 Target

The third item on my list is something I have been interested in but have not purchased since I am not completely the label junkie and just use things that look good and make me feel great. But I do love my handbags and I have always been a fan of Rebecca Minkoff.. I do have one of the Mini MAC bags. But I have always looked at her more structured bags like the MAB or even the Regan satchel.. So yes I would love to add a structured black bag to my collection.

Rebecca Minkoff Large Regan Satchel $350

And why not add in a Rebecca Minkoff wallet to go with!

$85

No list of mine would be complete without clothing, shoes, and beauty items.. soooo…

My clothing item is just a sweatsuit matching pieces from Rainbow Shops

Hoodie $11

Pants $11

My shoes two pairs:

1-Checkerboard Vans

Nordstrom $50

2-Fenty Faux Fur Slides

Ruvilla $90

And for beauty I have three things with my eyes on them:

1-Watermelon Sleeping Mask

Sephora $45

2-Fenty Trophy Wife

Sephora $34

3-Tommy Girl Perfume

Macy’s $57

Finally my emotional wants for this coming year are four simple things. Firstly I want to strengthen my relationship with the Lord (always a work in progress) second I want to see my loved ones as much as possible throughout the year (especially my mom, goddaughter, and dogs) third is a natural for me.. I want to see somewhere new or maybe two places and eat good food (if this happens I will try to blog) and fourth aka last but not least I want to be successful with school, with my blog, and YouTube channel!

That is all I have this year… I hope you guys have a blessed Christmas and that the new year is full of happiness and great health for us all. May all your dreams come true in 2018!

For those who do not celebrate Christmas.. Happy Holidays!

Love Toria

Christmas Gift Shopping

Heelllooo World,
I absolutely love Christmas, it has been my favorite holiday since I was tiny. In fact in 34 years of my life I have never not believed in Santa.  Some of you might say I am crazy if I believe in a man in his red suit who has flying reindeer and delivers presents to all of the children of the world. That’s okay for you to believe or not believe you are entitled to your own opinion. As am I!


But let go of the object… the man called Santa and listen to the feelings. The feelings of wanting to give, wanting to make someone happy, that warmth that hits even the coldest people, the feel of magic in the air that comes with the nostalgics of Christmas. Also if you are like me and a faithful Christian than we celebrate the birthday of Jesus. Jesus is the reason for the season!


Normally I spend a few months collecting items that I think will make my loved ones the happiest on Christmas Day.. Whether it be of sincere or comic value!  This year this is not the case… Not only have I been consumed with my move and getting adapted to this state we now call home… but let’s keep it real.. I am not working and do not have that kind of money as I am a stay at home cat mom.


So I thought why not do something that I have always wanted to do.. A yearly themed gift.. And for the kids who have no use for a gift like this something different. No what should I do?  I know for those I am sending a Christmas card to I want to send an ornament to mark the change in our lives. BTW This is not the ornament! 


For the gifts.. I am thinking the theme should be “Mugs & Socks”.. I think this would be the perfect gift of coziness and warmth. Like I am giving my loved ones a hug from afar! Now we know I am not going to DIY socks because I am not that crafty lol! But should I DIY the mugs with a few Pinterest styles? 


I would love to hear your thoughts about doing Christmas presents like this… I am definitely going to try it and if it works out this way I think I might do themed birthday gifts for 2018.
Until next time my pretties,

Toria

5 Items: Burlington Coat Factory

Hi Guys,
This is the beginning of greatness!! I would like to start a new series all about bargain shopping! I am a bargain shopper by blood from my mama… and I can clearance hunt with the best of them aka my mom and aunts!

My family loves to shop… we used to and if we can.. we will still eat our meals on turkey-day all while planning our plan of attack on the sales that are about to unleash! Maybe the love of shopping for most of us is why I truly believe in retail therapy! LOL!

This series will be called 5 items and it is really just 5 bargain items from different stores… sometimes I will give myself a challenge when buying these items or like today just great items I found at a really good price!

Today’s 5 items are from one of my favorite stores and that is Burlington Coat Factory (BFC), this store is a great place to buy clothing, fashion accessories, shoes, beauty, home goods and so much more. I almost found a bit of it all… lol!!

The first item I found was a men’s denim button up that I thought would be cute as a light throw for those days where the sun is out like summer but there is also that lovely fall breeze! This is a Guess shirt that originally retailed for 89 bucks but I was able to purchase it on clearance for just $17!


The second item I found also is an item made by Guess… but these are slides and unless you live under a rock then you know slides took over this year like never before! I was looking at the Guess slides online and when I saw them in BFC I jumped on them! They retail for 25 bucks and I bought them for $15… not as big as a deal as the first item but saving is saving!


The third item of course is a notebook because stationary, books, and journals is always a stop at every store… this notebook is cute, pink, and motivational! The notebook retails for 14 bucks and I bought it for $4!


The fourth item I found was not something I needed but something I wanted for the new place. I saw this and thought this would be so cute in my dining area with the rest of my farmhousey items! The canister retails for 10 bucks and I bought it for $5!


The last item was not actually an item for me but a gift for Lani… she turned 13 recently… becoming a teenage girl, getting into makeup, becoming a young woman and I knew she would need to find her scent! So I picked up a 1D perfume that smells divine and the bottle is so precious! If I can find another I will add one to my collection. This perfume retails for 16 bucks and I bought it for $7.


And there you have it the 5 items from BFC.. what do you think? Let’s run some numbers:

Retail Value: $145 – Purchased Value:$48 – Value Saved:$97

I will take that 97 bucks any day… this is why I love the being a Deal Hunter! I hope you enjoyed this new series.. I look forward to the future of this series of course… it’s all about shopping!! I am excited to go for other stores and challenges. The challenges can be a budget or a look alike outfit from a magazine.. I am going to try and be creative with the challenges! If you have any challenge ideas or stores you want to see me try.. Just let me know!

Love Toria

Birthday Wish List 2017

Hi Guys,

It’s that time of the year again…. MY BIRTHDAY!!!!

That means… this is my annual Birthday Wish List! Unfortunately in this day an age disclaimers are needed to hopefully avoid one of the internet trolls lol..

*DISCLAIMER* Do not read much into my list that I post it is basically my if I could have anything what would that look like. I am not one who makes a list and gets everything on it or even anything on it as gifts. I normally buy myself things on my wish list that I really want! I do not expect gifts from anyone just love and cake haha.. Also I want to know what items would be on your wish list?? 

All I really want for my bday is.. God’s blessings, good vibes, great food, and a functioning world that allows me to grow old with my loved ones!! 

Let’s get this started.. 

Fashion: I love clothing, shoes, and all things fashion. (I dream of giant two level walk in closet) I shop year round and would consider myself somewhat of a pro at shopping. I do not worry about what everyone else wears or thinks is in trend.. I simply just buy what I like and what makes me feel great!

Adidas EQT Support ADV in Lavender Monochrome $110 I have wanted these for a little while now and just think they are the most adorable sneakers ever.. I know pastel colors are technically spring colors but I love wearing what others think are “seasonal” colors all year round! 

adidas egt lavender

(women’s size 10)

Vans Mono Canvas Old Skool in Skyway (light blue) $55 I have always wanted a pair of these but never wanted to buy the basic colors and now these have arrived in my sight.

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(women’s size 10.5)

Rue 21 Plus Camo 3pc Sweatsuit $57 (for all three)- yes I know these may be lounge wear or look like PJ’s but they look amazing!

Hoodie $19

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(women’s 2X)

Cardigan Duster $19

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(women’s 3X)

Leggings $19

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(women’s 2X)

Fila Trayton Hoodie $68– I have these Fila Grant Hill’s that I wanted when I was in 8th grade and I bought them not long ago but now all I need is a hoodie to wear them with. The thing I love about this one is the brown with the other colors because I can pair with brown leggings!

 

 (men’s 2X or 3X- I love my hoodies huge and comfy like a blanket)

Velour Tracksuit $35 I know everyone had the Juicy Couture velour track suits a billion years ago now but I never had one! I think these are so cute and being cute and exercisy is amazing.. basically 60% of my wardrobe is cute as a button and athletic! 


(women’s 2X)


Tech- I feel I am always in a constant need to upgrade my tech game in order to better my blogging and YouTube work (especially if I want to make it a full time career)!

Smart Watch- I am listing 3 different ones only because there are different brands and styles out here. I want a watch that will track my steps, calendar reminders, allows me to text, and can answer/make phone calls. Not to mention I always wanted to be a Power Ranger!

Fossil Gen 3 Smartwatch $275 I love the two tone of the rose gold and navy.. it just looks classic! 


(Q VENTURE ROSE TWO TONE)

Michael Kors Bradshaw $350 I think this is the boujee one of the bunch… the most expensive for sure! But it looks like a regular watch face so kind of a disguise however it’s a touchscreen and it’s eggplant colored metal! 


(Plum color)

Apple Watch Series 1 $269 This is the most common smart watch you see on everyone’s wrist. It’s like the PSL of smart watches.. I am okay with being basic and having an Apple Watch as long as it looks semi girly like this one lol!


(38mm rose gold with pink sand sports band) 

Laptop- I need a common but specific laptop.. I found this one.. I could go for the Intel Core i7 with more memory and bigger hard drive but this is the basics of what I need to better edit my videos!

HP – 15.6″ Touch-Screen Laptop – Intel Core i5 – 8GB Memory – 1TB Hard Drive – HP finish in jet black $529 


(Click here for this one)  

Film Editing Software- VideoStudio Ultimate X10 for Windows $100 I could use a different one as long as it’s compatible with the laptop above.

 

Beauty- who would I be if I didn’t include beauty on a wish list.. I love reviewing beauty products.. So I kept it easy and picked my 4 top items from my Sephora “LOVES” list. And a KC product! 

Glow Recipe Watermelon Glow Sleeping Mask $45 Doesn’t this just sound amazing and looks divine! I want watermelon all over my face!

 

Moschino Pink Fresh Couture Perfume 1.0 oz $45 I have wanted the original windex perfume for the bottle but knew I wouldn’t like the notes.. but they released this one and it’s the bottle with my scents and color!!! 


 

Farsali Unicorn Essence Serum $54 I have wanted to try these skin enhancement drops since they were released but was always concerned with oiliness.. however I heard these are quite nice and not oily! 


 

Jo LOVES White Rose & Lemon Leaves Fragrance Paintbrush Gel $55 I have always wanted to try a Jo Malone fragrance and now this will give me that opportunity and with a cool bonus aspect.


 

I love shopping for a cause! The Kylie Cosmetic item I want is the lip kit in the color “Smile” and that is because 100% of the proceeds go to SmileTrain which is an amazing foundation that treats untreated cleft lips. This color is no longer available but if Kylie Jenner happens to read my blog lol… giiirrlll bring that color back I am sure it will sell out immediately and raise more money for that amazing foundation who blesses children and parents all around the world.


 

Home- Firstly I just moved so of course there are things I want but also I am working hard on creating an ambiance for us to live comfortably and work from here productively as well!

 

Keurig 2.0 $120 I loved having my Keurig prior it is so convenient for folks who like drastically different coffee flavors! And this one is not only in my favorite color but one step up from the basic one! 

(Color: Oasis) 
 

Wall Shelves Set of 4 $25 I want to add a little bit of storage and cuteness over our writing desk! I think white is needed to tie in more if the color combo for the guest room! 

Upholstered Office Chair $170 I picked this one because it’s brown and white and goes with the color scheme of the room but technically we could do any color that goes with brown and white! PS I love animal print and cow print is no different!


 

Neon Lights $100 I just want to see my name in lights and at the same time I think it would add something special to the background of my videos.


I would want it to say ToriaLouise so I may need 2!

 

Experiences- I always list things I want do and aside from these things listed I really just want to see my loved ones in CA, PA, FL.. and break aka “eat” cake with everyone. (when I say “cake” I mean cake, pie, and or donuts!!)

MOIC SF– this is the museum of ice cream that took over LA and is now opening in SF and I am happy to say that we will be attending so stay tuned for pics! 

 

Color Factory SF– this is another museum type attraction that has beautiful rooms full of imagination and creativity.. sadly tickets for October are not available so Color Factory if your reading my blog please open it up for me to attend in October I am sure you will sell out October as well! (update- there ticket sales website was malfunctioning when I was in there to buy tickets so I in fact missed out on the tickets I needed) 😦

 

Mac N Cheese in Wisconsin.. just ask yourself doesn’t it sound amazing to have mac n cheese in the home of cheese heads… they even have this delicious place called MACS and it’s a mac n cheese shop! 


 

Have visitors here in IL.. I want to show people what I have seen and maybe find something new with them!!

 

Like I said these are gifts I do not expect to receive in anyway from anyone. Just seeing or hearing “Happy Birthday” to me or reading beautiful comments is what I appreciate so very much! 

Love Toria

Hi Guys,

Fall is here! Now that I have moved from California to Illinois where seasons are a real thing.. My fall wardrobe needs to be on point.

I am used to just trying to be cute (not warm) because in the Bay Area we have cloudy days but never cold enough to wear a parka and then we have sunny days but never hot enough to leave home without a light coat. Both of these days could take a turn and become scorching or freezing at any moment. To top it off these days happen year round for the Bay.. and for most of the year it was perfect blue skies that is sunny with a breeze..

Fall time to me is more than pumpkin spice life… it marks the beginning of Halloween movies and leads up to my birthday. I know for most it means boots and sweaters maybe a scarf, hat, and glove set but for me there are multiple days during summer when I wear my boots and sweaters. My dad always said “the coldest winter I ever felt is summer in San Francisco.”

Last year for my birthday we flew into Chicago and drove through Indiana to spend time in Cincinnati.. In fact if you click >>THIS<< you can see the vlog from that bday trip. I got my first taste of a real fall season and it was really #SWEATERWEATHER..

So now I am going to show you what OOTD’s I have taken that look good for fall. My “FALL WARDROBE ALREADIES”… and I will follow up with a few “FALL WARDROBE NEWBIES”!

DISCLAIMER…. I AM SUPER AWKWARD AT OOTD POSES >_<

Lets start with a couple casual head to toe outfits:

  1. A chic plaid tunic with denim trim is perfect with cognac over the knee boots and a tan puffer coat for the fall days it gets chilly.. I get that farmhouse cute vibe here!
  2. I used a velvet button up blouse as my light “jacket” over an all black basics (leggings and cami tank) and to spruce it up I threw on black booties with gold details.. I love the vampy feel of the velvet and what is more fall than vampy!
  3. I love a tshirt dress and truly think they are the perfect item for the spring-fall seasons and this one being black and white stripes gives off a Halloween look.. and of course I love my sneakers all year round! All I need is a cute leatherette jacket to keep me warm.

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The next few outfits are from when I worked in business casual office and utilize the “casual” aspect to dress cute but comfy with my leggings.. lol

  1. I loved this lined sweater/jacket because it was warm but not sweaty and I would take it and throw it over a tshirt like in the pic and it looks great.
  2. Layering is something that helps with the temp difference from summer to fall. This photo I took a long striped lightweight button up tank and put a light knit sweater over it to give it that preppy business casual look. Also the jacket is a fleece peacoat because a traditional peacoat made of wool is just a bit to heavy for me. I sweat easily!
  3. I adore pink in the fall for two reasons.. 1. My birthday is in October and my fave color has always been pink especially being that one of my birthstones is rose quartz.. 2. October is Breast Cancer Awareness month (pink ribbons) and this specific form of cancer has impacted my family including my mom and I typically try to wear pink almost everyday in October! In this photo I am wearing leggings but a beautiful floral print with pink… again I threw on a great jacket this pink leatherette jacket and black tshirt!

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Throughout the whole year sweatshirts or jumpers and tshirts are huge part of my wardrobe but when it comes to fall and winter I normally go ham and stock up!

  1. I have sweatshirts that I make on >>Customized Girl<< and this one was for Gen Beauty by Ipsy in SF with my IG/Twitter on it.. So cute and of course it has pink!
  2. I love food printed on everything (going to post a blog about all the food items I have) this french fry crew neck is amazing!
  3. Who doesn’t love Selena first of all and if I can find more tshirts with her on it best believe she will become my uniform for life!

 

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I know over the knee boots, Ugg’s, and sneakers are the typical fall staple shoes but am I crazy for wanting to wear my fuzzy sandals (yes I wear them with amazing socks!!) all year round.. okay maybe not during the snow time but how would I know since I have yet to experience living in snow!

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And there you have some of my past OOTD’s that I consider good looks for the fall I.. my “ALREADIES” << is this a new word lol! I hope y’all enjoyed this and I can’t wait to show you some “NEWBIES” for fall when they start to arrive. Are there any stores you would like to see me try out?

I love you guys so much and thank you reading!

-Toria

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New Anxiety Technique

Sorry not sorry for the super long post!

I know my normal blogging has turned into more list of pictures and what not.. But this post is going to be all about ANXIETY and if you have it this may help you…

As many of you know I have:

  1. Anxiety
  2. Depression
  3. Hypersensitivity
  4. Possibly Fibromyalgia
  5. Diabetes and more!

I have really been going through it lately! So much so that I was hurting my body with the amount of pressure that I was allowing my anxiety to put inside me. The pulling of my neck… migraines… chest pressure… stomach aches.. Recently I was given medicine for what may be Fibromyalgia (that I should take more religiously so I could get rid of the pain) and yes thinking about the mobility pain made me nervous but the idea of taking medicine makes me even more nervous -_- !

Imagine living with your stomach feeling constant dread, your mind always worried, your body shaky and now you’re sometimes stuttering.. Y’all must think I am so stupid for not taking the pills to help my pain.. I sometimes think the same but knowing I was not only scared about taking the medicine, the pain, and everything else but I was also soooo wrapped up with what everyone thought about me. I guess you can say I cared so much that I forgot about ME!

Let’s go back a month or so… I was at work which is a place that already gives me major anxiety because I always try to do my very best to perform well at whatever roll I am in. (no matter what the roll every roll plays a part in your success, your bank accounts success, and company success) For the most part my peers notice my work ethic from day one but I have been dealt a handful of people who do not and it bothered me. I just hate when someone thinks bad of me…

At the same time big changes were happening in my household as my SO was leaving the company we both had worked for and moving to a new state. No surprise but I am horrible with change.. If you couldn’t tell. He will be commuting back and forth and eventually I will make the move and join him. This change meant I would be leaving not only family and friends but everything I have ever known.

I knew I needed to seek help and speak with my therapist… so I called and made an appointment.  While there my doctor told me about this training or seminar she recently attended and a new technique she learned and even practiced herself on herself.  I am not sure about the name but basically when you feel the anxiety to begin to knock at your door you invite the anxiety in but not only in but to give you everything it has.  I know this may sound strange or if you’re like me this may sound life and death drastically dangerous.  I gave my doctor the side eye and honestly took in the info but thought I would never be strong enough to even try this.

The next day I was at work… needless to say my stomach was churning butterflies and anxiety was getting ready for lift off. I decided to talk to it (learning that yes anxiety is its own being and no anxiety is not who I am) and asked kindly “anxiety give me all you got!” I began to feel stronger than it and a little angry at it so I said to it “YOU CAN’T HURT ME.” Now really feeling strong I demanded for it “to hit me with its best shot!” I could feel the anxiety building up like that feeling you get when you’re about to puke. The anxiety started in my gut and kept rising into my throat.

I could tell the anxiety wanted me to give in and stay weak but I didn’t. No matter how scared I was I encouraged the anxiety to keep going. I was literally nauseated from this. All of a sudden… finally… I COULD BREATHE!!! In my mind I had just vomited all of my anxiety out and it was all over the floor fading away.

The way I felt after was a sense of relief. When thinking about the intense changes coming my way I got excited for the adventure ahead. I got excited for my family and friends to come and visit. And when it came to work.. I am moving leaving this company anyways and as I will always be the type of person to give a roll my best… if some chose not to notice or encourage that well that is eventually there loss. Since the first time with this technique I have been kind of calm and back to my old self just a tad.  I used to be the type of person who was good with doing my best and just rolling with everything that came my way. What is meant to be will be and God has a reason for everything!

Until this past Monday which marked the week prior to my SO leaving! My mind has been going in circles and anxiety skyrocketing. I have not tried to use the technique yet because I feel like everyday it will hit me especially the day he takes off on this journey and I am not mentally ready for this battle again.

BTW- I have realized that anxiety has been here so long I have started to use it as a security blanket.. so scary to think about how much power IT has!
-To be continued-